numb
So.. no contact for 17 days now. I'm wondering if the time comes when i lose count then i will be healed. Honestly i want so badly to talk to her, but i have no clue what i would even say at this point. I feel numb and empty now. I'm still hurting, but i just have nothing to say and i don't know what to think about my situation anymore. Some friends that have her on facebook told me that she is going out a lot and partying. Actually we first got together this time, 3 years ago at a party. I wonder if thats what she does....
I suppose i don't really know her, at least as a single person i have no idea what she is like, i don't even know what I'm like anymore either, maybe its the antidepressants making me feel this numb. Or maybe i have reached some new stage of grieving or something, i just simply don't know what to think anymore.
I suppose i don't really know her, at least as a single person i have no idea what she is like, i don't even know what I'm like anymore either, maybe its the antidepressants making me feel this numb. Or maybe i have reached some new stage of grieving or something, i just simply don't know what to think anymore.
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I\'m with you 100%. Numb. Comfortably numb. It\'s odd really. I echo your thoughts about not knowing what she\'s like single. It is so incredibly painful to even think about. Day 17, you should be SO proud, I\'m finishing Day 4, and I can already feel the urge.
You are doing great. Be proud of yourself.
Thanks, I\'m proud a little because i don\'t want to look so pathetic to her, it\'s demeaning. I wish i knew how things became like this...
Still, You are doing great also, I have begged and cried and everything before now, so at least you are doing things right.