Sadness
I am feeling very sad at the moment. I took an Alpha course at the church by me and a lovely lady was part of the group. She usually sat by me and would give me neck massages and talk about life. Well a few months back she fell and broke her hip. She had to get surgery. The last I heard she was ready to go back to her apartment but her sons wouldn't allow it and put her in a nursing home. Before her fall she expressed a lot of anger towards her sons trying to put her in a home before. Well I just found out she passed away last week. I think she lost the will to live when they did that. She was such a wonderful, kind and caring lady. and she had quite the feistiness to her. They are holding a memorial for her next week, but it is just too far away in the city for me with a lot of walking (with my fibro) and it's only for about 20 minutes and standing room only. Also, I sadly have no money right now and no proper clothes for a service. I would be embarrassed. I feel guilty that I don't think I'll go. I tried to find the home where her service was to leave condolences but there wasn't even anything in the paper about it. It popped up with her husband's name who passed away 2 years ago. It is just so sad when people die.
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mystie.......
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mystie, I am so, so sorry for your loss. :( She sounds like she was a very dear friend to you and it thus breaks my heart as much as yours that she\'s gone. It sounds like you feel bad that you can\'t go to the memorial...how would you feel about sending condolences to her sons? Would that help you feel any better?
This, to me, is clearly something that at this time is something that you definitely did not want or need to see happen. :( So I am going to send some prayers in your direction...
Thank you for the prayers!! I just feel like I keep getting hit more and more with stressful stuff. She was a wonderful lady and I feel very sad about her death. I do not know the details but will find out through another (friend). Although stupid me can\'t find her phone number to call her. I might see if my mom can lend me the money to get a cheap pair of pants. All I have are jeans and shorts, not appropriate for a memorial. It was the pastor at the church that emailed me. I haven\'t been going lately. Thank you so so much!!! Your words mean a lot!!!!
Awww, mystie, I\'m so very sorry to hear this happened. Perhaps you can find that other friend\'s phone number via google or something like that.
From what you said about how she felt going into the nursing home, I think you figured it out. I know going into one of them would be the end of me.
I sure hope mom will lend you enough to get a pair of pants and that you will be able to go. If you know the name of the funeral home, you could find out if they are going to put up an online obituary. Down here seems more and more are doing that so people can give their condolences that way. You could also email the pastor back and get more info from him I would think. I wouldn\'t worry about your not going to his church, this is something on a personal level and I would think he\'d help you out.
I know you didn\'t need this news any more than you need another hole in your head though:(:(
I\'ll be saying some extra prayers for you as well.
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