Progress??

I mark my progress, only because I rarely feel deeply depressed or emotionally out of control anymore. I never think about wanting to die or of hurting myself. Sometimes I think I feel too little. I've built up a bit of a wall. That really isn't happiness. I don't want to feel nothing. And really, I don't...because I do love my family very much and I care about others. I just think I've let go of a lot of my feelings in this relationship. The good part is letting go of what I can't control, but where my own growth and happiness is concerned, I feel that I'm standing still, and time is wasting away...along with my life. It's not the way it should be.