I've recently realized I've been having frequent feelings of rage. My mind goes over & over so many negative, hurtful things, both from the past and the present. One thought leads to another thought, and so on...I feel so angry inside I just want to scream or wreck something. I've never been one to hurt anyone or to damage anything, so I don't think I could take it that far, but the rage inside me in those moments almost consumes me. This has been happening a lot in the past 2 months or so. The angry feeling often just subsides or sometimes I end up crying. The person I'm most likely to hurt is myself. Sometimes I think of cutting myself (which I have done, but it was more like scratches with a small pair of scissors), bashing my head on something or making myself throw up. I feel self loathing & self destructive. I feel unwanted, ugly, disgusting, repulsive. I hate my body. I feel like a stupid, uneducated, useless failure. Right now I'm feeling very angry & hurt, and it will pass to some degree, but the thoughts are always there, lingering in the back of my mind. Any negative or hurtful thing could trigger the strong angry feelings or a depressive episode.