Back on track

  Well, things are seeming like a rollercoaster. Been going through some bad depression about everything. That experience on the last job really messed me up a bit. Got me thinking that I'm just no good at all. I don't know why, buy it seems to be a lot of reflection about my past and things that I've done that I feel ashamed about.
    Anyway, all I can really do is try to put that aside. I've got no time for being depressed. The world doesn't stop for me. I have to keep on pushing. Just seems like such a big mountain ahead, and frankly it scares the hell out of me. This is not the way i want to leave this world.I still have so much to do.
    Today I went out and did an estimate for a job. To hell with working for guys like Grege. I can still do work on my own. I know what I can do, and painting is one thing I'm good at. anyway I think i will get the job, but now i'm getting all sorts of calls for jobs. one guy just called me. he said he has a company that has 14 painters, and he has jobs all over Toronto. I told him I didn't drive, and he was alright. He said most of his guys don't drive. so that's good. he gave me the address so I'm going to meet him tomorow. it's sounding good so far.
   Tonight I'm going to my home group meeting. I'm just going to take things as they come. Thank you Lord.