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Feeling good today. went to my methadone Dr today. Boy she talks a lot, but I'm going down another 3 mg to 14mg. Yahoo! Be off that shit soon. Thank God.
This morning it was a bit of a nut house at the clinic. I can't believe how self centered some of the people are there. As soon as they come in they go right up and just start demanding attention right then.
I laughed one day when this guy came in for his methadone, and the receptionist told him he would have to wait a bit for the Dr. The guy said,"Well, I hope it's no longer than 5 minutes. I don't want to be late because of him.' This other guy told him," Why didn't you leave earlier if you knew you had an appointment then?" it was pretty good I thought, and straight up. the guy just shut up.
There was this other guy who was all messed up from crystal meth. He started laying right on the floor in the waiting room. He was all depressed and talking foolish. They give him shit for it.
Sometimes there is fights there and the police come, but that's rare. What bugs me is that the only thing most of the people talk about is drugs, drugs, and more drugs. Hardly anything else. I understand it, but I don't like it or participate in it.
Anyway, I'm at the club on the computer and cleaning. I've been pretty good about being more tolerant towards people here. I try not to get mad, or be sarcastic with them. I even try to calm arguments between people who start bitching at each other, and that is a daily thing. I find this pretty interesting, and educational. I see myself in them at times. Only difference is that I was given the opportunity to get sober, and a mind to accept it.
I'm going to Labour ready in a bit to register. I was there at 6:30am, but you need to register and do this silly test that they give the answers to anyway. I should be working tomorrow, and boy do I need some money.
Denis at the shelter gave me a couple of tokens last night so I can get on the subway. Normally I would take a chance and sneak on, but I'm trying to be honest now and not do all that crazy stuff. Without any alcohol or drugs it's way too embaressing getting caught, or having people see me. Before when I was using I would just walk in. I didn't care.
I feel very good about being clean. I don't have any inclinations at all about drinking. I think that it's finally solidified that I just can't drink. Period. That is a real blessing. Finally.
All the guys here at the club seemed to be real bitchy today. Lots of little arguments, and name calling. Maybe it's the weather, or Monday??? Who knows. It is still cold out today. The news said it was supposed to be warmer, but it's not really.
Anyway, that's my day so far. I might be back later. Thank you, Lord.
This morning it was a bit of a nut house at the clinic. I can't believe how self centered some of the people are there. As soon as they come in they go right up and just start demanding attention right then.
I laughed one day when this guy came in for his methadone, and the receptionist told him he would have to wait a bit for the Dr. The guy said,"Well, I hope it's no longer than 5 minutes. I don't want to be late because of him.' This other guy told him," Why didn't you leave earlier if you knew you had an appointment then?" it was pretty good I thought, and straight up. the guy just shut up.
There was this other guy who was all messed up from crystal meth. He started laying right on the floor in the waiting room. He was all depressed and talking foolish. They give him shit for it.
Sometimes there is fights there and the police come, but that's rare. What bugs me is that the only thing most of the people talk about is drugs, drugs, and more drugs. Hardly anything else. I understand it, but I don't like it or participate in it.
Anyway, I'm at the club on the computer and cleaning. I've been pretty good about being more tolerant towards people here. I try not to get mad, or be sarcastic with them. I even try to calm arguments between people who start bitching at each other, and that is a daily thing. I find this pretty interesting, and educational. I see myself in them at times. Only difference is that I was given the opportunity to get sober, and a mind to accept it.
I'm going to Labour ready in a bit to register. I was there at 6:30am, but you need to register and do this silly test that they give the answers to anyway. I should be working tomorrow, and boy do I need some money.
Denis at the shelter gave me a couple of tokens last night so I can get on the subway. Normally I would take a chance and sneak on, but I'm trying to be honest now and not do all that crazy stuff. Without any alcohol or drugs it's way too embaressing getting caught, or having people see me. Before when I was using I would just walk in. I didn't care.
I feel very good about being clean. I don't have any inclinations at all about drinking. I think that it's finally solidified that I just can't drink. Period. That is a real blessing. Finally.
All the guys here at the club seemed to be real bitchy today. Lots of little arguments, and name calling. Maybe it's the weather, or Monday??? Who knows. It is still cold out today. The news said it was supposed to be warmer, but it's not really.
Anyway, that's my day so far. I might be back later. Thank you, Lord.
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