Ahhh. Finally get to relaxe. Finished the painting job I had, and got payed. It was an easy job, but even those can make things a little stressed. So far since loseing my job, I have been doing pretty good with work. Usually at this time of year people try to get work caught up and out of the way, and others are looking for apartments, so that keeps me busy. I went to the methadone clinic yesterday for my third urine sample. I think all thjat's left now is seeing the Dr for him to get the proper dose for me. Still a bit leary about methadone, but I'm willing to give it a try. Hopefully I'll only be on it for three to six months, and get myself back on track. At least I will finally be able to try and save some money. I think I'm just going to relaxe a little today. I feel a little worn out from working and the emotional stress i've been going through. Not having the computer was pretty hard. all my phone numbers and information is on the computer so even trying to make a phone call would be a task. I have another new computer now. Rishi set it up for me. I've really been blessed a lot with good people that have helped me so much. in about the last six months I've had two new computers given to me for free, managed to get all my bills payed, always have good healthy food, been able to look after, and provide for my cats. work seems to come out of nowhere, and at the right times. life hasn't been easy, but i'm dealing with things a lot better. Even being out of work at the present is alright. I'm not all that worried about it, and I know things will be alright. My rent and bills are payed up in advance to cover next month, so I don't need to worry for ahwile. When I do get money I've started putting it on something that will make things easier so that I don't blow it on something vfoolish. I find the faster I get rid of it in a possitive way it really makes things a lot easier. I find that also minamizes any temptations that might come along. I got a new T.V the other day. It's much better than my other one. It's smaller and the picture is great. I got it after a tennant moved out of a place and left it. I was also able to finally get the cable set up properly. Not having the computer was just too quiet, so that got me motivated to set up the T.V. I don't have to pay for the cable either, so that's good. I can get about a hundred channels. Mostly I like to watch A&E. I like the crime shows the best. I can watch those all day lomg and never get bored. I have gone without T.V for about two years now, and didn't miss it at all. Most stuff I find these days on T.V is just garbage. All these dumb reality shows, and the comedy is so pathetic. I like all the old type of shows that I grew up with. They were so good, and they had style, class, and were just plain good. it's so hard to find that nowadays. it seems that they just put on anything now, and as cheap as possible. the mainb thing I find about T.V. shows now is the moral decline. Lots of swearing and vulgarity seem to be the norm now. Putting people down or degrading someone seems to be what people like now. I really don't understand why people like this. Anyway, I have found that they do have a couple of stations where you can still see the old shows. To me it seems to take me back to a time when life was the best ever. Anyway, I found a differant phone service provider that I'm going to change over to. I can save about thirty dollars a month, so I'm going to try it. bell isn't bad, but I find they tend to like nickle and dimeing you too much. They are forever calling about differant packages that are supposed to be cheaper, but end up costing more all the time. They get me all confused half the time. I can't understand why they can't just give me the type of service that I want. i hate all this stuff that always includes things I don't need or want. when they say their giving you a twenty five dollar service it usually ends up actually working out to about fifty dollars after all these other cost for things that I don't understand why they are there anyway. It's just ways of grabbing more money of you. On my bill there is touch tone charge. I think that's ridiculous. Not even sure if they sell rotary phones anymore, and whats so differant that they need to charge you $3 a month for that. then they have a sevice area charge. What the hell is that? And then they have a chrge for 911. That is a necessity, and I can't think of any resonable idea why that's there. Oh well, that's just life in a crazy world. anyway, going to go and eat now. Thank you Lord for all you do. Please help me to become more of the person that you meant me to be. Help me to overcome my downfalls, and faults, and to have the courage to live good. Thank you.  Well, thought i was going to relaxe. dave just called and said he wants me to do some work this weekend. so now i'm going to be in Carlisle for the weekend. That's good. i can always use the money, and staying busy keeps me alright. It will be good to get away anyway for a bit. Thank you so much Lord, for all these good people you bring to me. It truly is a gift. Thank you.