Finally, got my place all cleaned up nice. Yahoo! Couldn't get to that for awhile now because of working so much, and it was getting beyond what I find comfortable. So many tools, and odds and ends for painting. You'de be surprised at how much stuff you end up using. Well, I'm glad that's done. Now everything is organized nicely. I find life is like that too. Leave to many things unatended to, and it creates problems that just keep on accumulating. The sooner you take care of them, even if you don't fix them, the sooner you can enjoy your peace of mind. That one guy that I was starting to kinda be friends with, I got pissed off with him last night. all these people around here seem to just bum things off you every time their around. It really gets anoying. Almost everytime he comes over it ends up costing me money. "Have you got this, or that. Have you got a ciggarette. " Geeze. I wasn't brought up that way, and I don't think it's right to always ask your friends for things everytime you see them. I can see once in awhile, but everytime is too much. Anyway, I told him to not come around anymore. Besides, I'm sure the reason he's broke all the time is because he's using drugs. I just don't need that type of people around. Have enough where I live with the guys downstairs. Almost every night their sitting on the steps drinking, and smoking dope. Their just below my window. All I hear is, "Fuck this, fuck that." And they play the music too loud, as if everyone else should listen to it. I usually just shut my window. Days like today I start getting a little bored with being inside, and no one around. I get tempted to go out and sit with them, but I know I can't do that. I can't sit with them when their drinking. It's like a bombardment of instant chaotic blabbering about nothing. All they do is talk and argue about roofing, or getting high. Never anything interesting to me. Oh well, time to stop bitching. I'm much happier right here with my cats. Their on the couch now, cuddling and washing each other. They get pretty happy when I clean the whole place. They like when it smells nice, and I notice a big differance in their behaviour. Some jerk left a message on my journal. One of those people that know nothing about me, but feel I'm important enough to waste their time writting stupid messages. I forget what it all said. Something about me being a crackhead or something. Anyway, hope I made their life a little better. Anyway, not much else this weekend. Just enjoying the quietness, and well deserved rest I'm getting. Thank you Lord for everything your doing. Help me to stay by you, and live more your ways. Thank you.

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Iv been reading quite a few of ur journals, you sound like ur doing GREAT! I really hope i have your attitude to life when im ur age! Even now i hope i can get it...i know im not quite there yet but i WILL be! I am determined! Iv done the BIGGEST achievement in life by coming off heroin, and been where i am today, after everything iv gone through!nothing can be as hard as that, it makes me want to give everything a go! So were u alcohol dependant?
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