Really glad today is over. Really not feeling too well. Not sure if it's a cold or what, but it feels awfull. My chest is sore, and congested, feel weak, head feels like a baloon. Went to work anyway. I feel like just resting, but that's just a waste of time. Can't afford it either. I think tomorrow I'm going to see the Dr. Almost got into a fight last nite with Dan downstairs. He was just being a real jerk trying to make like he owns the building. I wanted to talk with Carlo's, and Dan just started talking really stupid. Got me pretty pissed off. I think it's more because of him binging on crack lately, and it's affecting his behaviour. He started working just two weeks ago, and he's blown all his money every week on crack. His pay is around $600.00 a week, and by Saturday he has nothing left. He's going to end up loseing his job and everything if he doesn't straighten out. anyway, that's his bussiness. I've tried talking to him, but nothing gets through to him. It's really pretty sad because he could be a hell of a nice guy, but he's an addict that refuses to see it. I'm really thankfull tho that we didn't start really fighting. He is really a huge guy, and I know he could knock my head off easily. I can really push my luck at times. Mostly we were just yapping off with our faces in each others. I feel kinda bad now about it. It was really stupid, and I didn't have to act that way. I will apologize to him when I see him. I know he probably feels bad to about it. Just a couple of grown men acting like children. Oh well, it's done now. Sometimes shit happens. I think that I mostly got mad because I've just not been feeling good at all lately. I haven't been to any meetings for awhile now, and I think I need to get back to them. I've noticed that my mood is getting pretty out of whack. Feeling depressed, and angry a lot lately. I have a lot of negative thoughts going through my head. Just thoughts that kinda beat me up emotionally. It's like every stupid thing I've done in the past while keeps playing on me. It really takes away all my energy to do things. I'll start trying to get my shit together tomorow. Really can't afford to get sqrewed up. Lord, please be with me, and help me to get things back on track. Thank you.