Feeling pretty tired now. Got the painting out of the road. Thank God. Not always good being in the same place too much alone. Me I get worrying way too much. I really try to do a good job, but these old places can be a chalenge. The walls are all patched up, and theres layers of wall paper, and sanding and mudding. They try to rush you so much because if they don't rent it, they lose money. I understand them, but I don't like pressure. And trying to work with hardley anything is enough to send anyone off. I decided yesterday to cancel everything and just focuse on the job, now I feel really guilty that I put things before recovery. I was supposed to go to Halton House, I think they had a dinner for us, but I canceled out. Didn't go to my noon meeting either. I feel guilty because I know I need them, and these people want to help, but things just seem to get in the way. Oh well, I guess thats just life at times. Hopefully after the meeting I'll feel better. Right now I feel like crawling back in bed and hidi9ng away, but I knjow I'll only worry more. Gotta keep busy. Thank you, Lord