Getting pretty nervous now about going away. i do know it's the best, and right thing for me tho. During the past few days i was drinking, and of course it always gets out of hand. I started seeing that it left me with no energy to do things. Things I need to do started pileing up, and making things real difficult. I just can't live that way. I need all the energy I can get right now, and always. I'm staying away from drinking now no matter what. anyday I'm going to get a call to go to Halton House, and I have to be clean. I've come too far to sqrew this up. They do testing there to make sure your clean, and I want to be ready. Spent the morning cleaning my place and packing my things. Still a few things to do yet. Need to go to welfare and drop my report off, along with my E.I. letter. Even doing that i should have taken care off already. In the past I was always one to stay on top of things, but drinking prevents that from happening. Anyway, have to go. Be glad when I get there. Thank you Lord.