Been having a very nice night just relaxing with my kitties. Finished work pretty early today for a change. It's been very nice just sitting here and puttering around. So nice to watch Jimmy and Jet cuddling and washing each other. Their starting to do that a lot lately. Makes me so happy to see that. Jimmy seems to like talking when I'm here. He keeps meowing and I weow back. He seems to like that. Not sure what were saying, but he seems happy about it. I just had another really good roast beef dinner. I am so gratefull for that. Seemed like it was so long that I was mostly just eating Kraft dinner, and whatever was just around. I got about two hundred dollars worth of assorted meats from the place I'm painting. A real bonus indead. Jimmy likes the roast too, but Jet is being fussy about it. She likes her hard tack, and her Friskies. I'm so happy to have her. She's really a sweetie now. Things are really going good now. I like what I'm doing, and I like myself again. Paul respects me a lot more now, but all this gets me questioning about going to treatment. I do talk to Paul about it. He seems to like me a lot, and wants me to go to treatment. He's seen me at my worst, so he knows how I can be when I get into things. The last few weeks with him have been a little hard at times, because he's really pushed me to get work done fast. Pissed me off a lot at first, but I look at how things are now and it's good. I'm working much better, and enjoying it. Still tough at times, but when I get appreciation from him and others, it makes it worth it. Sometimes I think about people like Dan who get payed more mo0ney for doing less, but it doesn't bother me. I know they only come out when they need dope money. I like being busy, and I am. I might get payed less, but it's good that Paul needs me all the time. I'm the first person he calls because he knows I'm there always, and that's good. I've started listening to this Christian radio program the past few days, and I've noticed that I feel much better. They have some really good programs in the mornin g that help to show how we should live. It's like recovery, well it is recovery, but not like A.A. I like it because it's about living right, and how to be a good person. That's recovery to me. anyway, that's whats going on. I feel like I'm ready for bed. Time to cuddle with Jimmy and Jet. What better wat to end a day. Thank you so much Lord for everything. Thank you. Amen.