Well, trying to stay away from drinking again. Still not feeling great because of the other nonsense I got into. Drinking always sooner or later leads me to something else. I'm still a bit mad at myself about it. Just seems so stupid now. It really takes me down emotionally. I had no bussiness being in Willies place at all, and would never go there if I hadn't been drinking. Guess I was a bit lonely, and when you drink you usually end up being with people that you normally wouldn't be with. I was pretty lonly today and when I made my dinner I seen Willie come home. I had lots of food, and I thought I should invite Willie up for some, but then I thought again and decided not to. Willie isn't a bad guy, buy he drinks all the time. I'll end up drinking again right away if I associate with him. I have to find some good people to be around. Either at church or meetings. Although I find it very hard getting any motivation to go to meetings anymore. Just get tired of the talk about drinking. I really don't feel I need to spend my time talking about drinking. I know not all meetings are like that, but around here they seem to be. Anyway, had a very hard day today. Did a lot of cleaning and throwing out Sheldon's garbage again. Moved into the bedroom again and threw out the matresses I was using in the dinning room. Set up my dining table again. Starting to look like my home again. Anyway, I'm tired and going to bed. Good night.