Things are going pretty good. Jet is living up to her name. She's a runner. Got out the other night and I had to chase her all over the street. Finally got her cormered on a porch and brought her back. She's retty sneaky with the door, so I have to watch more carefully. Her and Jimmy are fine now. Jimmy just seems to think she's nuts now when she howls, mostly at night. Last night I fed them when she started howling, and she calmed down and came and slept with me in my bed, and Jimmy didn't bother her. He's getting pretty good with her. I started thinking today that she might be pregnant already. I felt her tummy, and it seemed a little big, but it was after she ate, so not sure. My body feels pretty sore lately. Been working a lot. Haven't had a day off for awhile. That's just as well, I need to keep busy or I know I might just drink again. Idle time is not good for me. I just don't know what to do. I do clean tho when I find time. Slowly the place is getting back in order. I still don't want to sleep in the bedroom because of just knowing Sheldon was there. Still got some anger there, but it's getting easier to deal with. Mostly I just try to focus on what i need to do at the present. I had a pastor that used to always tell me, "Keep your focuse on God, and moving ahead." That's so very true. Everytime I get stuck in something from the past, I just get completly messed up. No sense living in the past. It's gone. Can learn from it, but that's it. Drinking gets me stuck in the past. Just sit there remembering, and thinking cause can't do much else. By the time I come out of it, my mind gets full of too much shit. Besides there are too many more important things that i would much rather put my energy into. Not going to let Sheldon take my time. I got thinking the other day, that's what revenge does. You get so caught up in wanting to get even that you miss out on so many good things. I spent a lot of years being revengefull. Used to dream about getting even. Seems good at first, but there's a price to pay. I don't want to pay that price. Really not nice at all. Anyway, thank you Lord for what your doing.