Feeling good today. Pretty busy tho. Got a lot of things I'm trying to do. The new cat is aparently a singer. She started howling last night about one in the morning. Woke me up and wouldn't stop. I had to get my ear plugs to get to sleep again. Going to have to get a spray bottle for that. Her and Jimmy are getting along nicely. Seems a little better each day. Jimmy did smack her a bit last night tho. She got on my bed with me and aparently he wasn't ready for that, and chased her off. Today he's not bothering her tho for being on my bed. Mayby because I'm not in bed with her. They eat together very well. Don't try to steal each others food, and no fighting. She just seems to have such a loud howl instead of a meow. Scares me at times when I'm not expecting it. Scares Jimmy too. Anyway, the police were here about Sheldon today. I phoned them to report him stealing the money. The officer was very nice. I told him at the time I was starting to drink a lot because of all the turmoil here and not kbnowing how to handle it. I told him because I didn't trust the way I was going I gave tghe money to Sheldon to hang onto, but didn't give him permision to take it with him. Told him I gave specific instructions for him to leave it with Dillon. Dillon is coraberating everything I have said too, but because I gave it to him the officer said it's not criminal but ratgher civil, so I need to file a civil suit. I'm doing that too. I hate con's like Sheldon. They are nothing but leaches. I will do everything I can to make him pay. His life won't be roses , I tell you that. Children's services still nereds to contact me. The officer told me he would phone Sheldon and try to get him to pay the money. Said he won't mention about it being civil, but said sometimes when people realize that the police are involved they get scared enough to pay rather than face more trouble. He really seemed to like me. I was straight up with him about my drinking problem and getting into drugs, and going to treatment. He said I was the first person he's seen in this area that has those problems, but also has a really nice place to live. I do feel a bit proud of myself. although I struggle, and beat myself up way too much, I still try to live and be good. My place is nice. A couple of times people have come in here and mentioned how nice it is for this area. Told me this place has to be the only one in this neighbourhood that looks like a home. I guess I do pretty good, inspite of the hell I put myself through. I really seem to beat myself up over any little thing. I guess that's a low self esteem or something. I don't know. I called the number Sheldon left on the paper top contact him. The person said they knew nothing about Sheldon. He wrote on the paper that it was Child Tax. I talked to Dillon about it. He said it was his mothers address and number, and that he probably told her to say she didn't know anything, or him. I went to probation today too. Told her all about everything. I told her before when I seen my drinking was getting bad and that I was heading for drugs. I tell her everything, and if she can help she will. She knows I'm going for treatment, and she supports me. Everyone seems to suport me. They all seem to like me and want me to get the help I need. I find that weird because I think so bad of myself most times. Hope I can straighten that part out when I go for treatment. In the mean time I'll keep myself busy with work, and I'm not letting up on Sheldon. I'll do things honest, but I'm going to do as much as I can to show the person he really is. Hopefully they will get that kid the help he needs through this. Thank you Lord.