Just got some bad news. My probation officer called me to tell me that my wife died, and my brother in law wants me to call so he can have custody of my kids. Shit. I don't know what to think rigt now. God why you always do this. Right now I'm sad. My wife was a good lady. I really thought that perhaps one day I might see her again. I've always still loved her. I know I was an asshole when I was there, and she did the right thing when she kicked me out. oh God. Just another peice of my heart gone. Can't be much left. Shit she was so young. I know she had diabetis pretty bad when I was there. I suppose that's what did it. Now after all these years, they want me to give custody to them. I don't even know where she's buried. I would like to go to her grave just to say some things. Oh God, Why you do this. This is awful.