Still feel a bit upset because of yesterday. Can't get it out of my head yet. Had a good sleep tho because I took a little more of my Seraquel. I did pray about it. I also am trying to forgive about it. We were E-mailing each other a few times over it. She really didn't say much. I was pretty upset at the whole thing. I tend to always get my hopes up a little too much. I tried phoning her several times, but she wouldn't answer. I know she has a few problems too, but I thought it could still work out. I guess not. Even the last time I got involved with her, she tends to look for anything that can be wrong, instead of what's good. She's a good lady that really tries. it's really too bad. Anyway, I need to do what I need to do. Today I need to go to work, and tonight is the night that my meeting is on so I'm going to go. Yesterday I felt so lonely after all this. I don't have any real freinds here or anything. This support group is all I have, and I need it. Please Lord, help me get through these things. Let me learn to be the person you want me to be. Help me to be strong and fight these negative emotions. Thank you.