Woke up at 6:30am today. Just couldn't sleep in. My body is sore from working. Taking the day off today. I didn't have my bosses number anyway to see if they needded me today. That's alright. I need a day off anyway to rest. Going to go to church this morning, and then over to visit with Cathy. For some reason I feel a little nervous of that. Actually the past few days I've noticed my emotions are a little messed up, as well as some of my thoughts, but that's to be expected I guess when you stop drinking. That hasn't been hard at all this time. I don't want to drink anymore, and I don't ever want to get myself in the state I was in the past couple of weeks. That was awful. I was going to go to A.A. meetings, but I'm having a hard time getting myself to go. I beleive in the program, but don't like how people do it these days. Just my thing I guess. when I hear old war stories about drinking, it just turns me off. I want to learn to live today. I want recovery, not to talk about when I was drinking. Today my problem is me, and my thinking. I want that to change. Lord, please guide me today. Help me to keep my mind open, and to learn your ways. Thank you.