Well, I just got home from work. Only worked a half day today. It was alright. We were working in a warehouse, so it was differant scenery. All the guys are really good. There mostly younger guys, but seem to have there heads sqrewed on right. They joke around, but when the work needs done we do it. The boss bought us all whopper combo's from burger king. That was a real treat. I haven't had one of thos in a long time. We sat outside in the nice sun together. It was really nice. I'm very happy. One thing that trie's to get me down tho, is when I hear all of them talk about their families. I feel like something's differant or something. I don't have one and it makes me feel kinda lonely or something. I think that feeling is one that gets me back to drinking. Last night before I went to bed I was trying some relaxation, and meditation, but what came to my mind were images of younger years and times with my family. I miss them so much at times, but there gone, and I feel alone. I know I'm not alone. God is with me, but I don't always feel that. I notice even in A.A. the people that have the best chances of staying sober, are the educated ones that still have good jobs, a home and their families. I don't think I'm feeling sorry or anything for myself. I know it was my own doing that messed up most things. The drinking, the drugs helped, but I still had choices. Just always seemed to prefere the wrong one's for some reason. Anyway, I'm gratefull today that I'm not using or drinking. I have a good job that I like and things are on track again. Thank you Lord.