Had a really good day working at the trailer. I like working there because I can run the place, and do whatever I want. I feel like it's my place, and I wish it was. I really work hard there, and I love it. I think the reason I like it so much is that Ed and Dian really need someone like me. I can put all my shit aside, and be happy just doing the best I can for them. The appreciate me, and that makes me feel very good. I'm noticing too how the medication is helping me a lot now. I feel very calm and peaceful most of the time. My mind doesn't go all over the place, thinking of negative shit. That was really bad after I decided to stop taking it. I never really payed attention to how much shit that went through my mind. Before I ever started the medication in the first place, I lived with that for years, thinking that it was normal. It's no wonder I turned to booze and drugs so early. Who wouldn't? I feel so peaceful most of the time now, and things don't bother me so much. Some things do, but I can deal with them rationally, instead of like a lunitic. And I don't dwell on the bad things that happened to me in the past. I still can remember them, and talk about them when necessary, but it doesn't beat me up like it used to. I can accept myself today, and like myself. God is so good. I really love the things he has done for me. I look foreward to the day now, instead of just trying to get through it. Peace of mind is so nice. I love it. You can't buy it, work for it, or get it any other way except by God, and for that I truly am thankful. I love you God. Amen.