Well, things are going really good. I got Rogers half way out of the way by making a payment today. Funny how things like that bother you until you do something about it. Once you deal with it, it's done, and you can move on. Moneywise I'm doing alright. I work most of the time so I don't spend that much. I just buy what's needed and the rest I save. It feels good being ahead of the game, finally. I have to do my laundry tonight. That's really a priority. I'm out of underware and socks. Went to the chip wagon yesterday. I can see things are going to be trying there. At first I was thinking that I would help them by taking over a lot of things that they have a hard time with, but Ed was drunk yesterday and barking orders like he was a general in the army or something. He doesn't know what he's doing when it comes to food bussiness, but he thinks he does and you can't tell him anything, so I'm just going to do whatever they want and leave it at that. I'll give my opinion, and advise, but leave the final decisions to them. I like to help them, and I would like to really see them do good, but I know Ed's in his final stages of living and he needs things to keep him ocupied. Dian was frustrated because he wanted to throw things out to get rid of the junk. I think that she just feels overwhelmed and not in controle because Ed just seems to barg in on anything she tries to do. It's a soap opera, but what can you do but try your best to do what you can. At home Sheldon gets frustrated trying to look after Stephan. Being three, he's at that stage where he wants what he wants. Sheldon has a hard time with that. He doesn't know how to put his foot down and stay in controle. Stephan might be three, but he knows how to play Sheldon. I think Sheldon feels guilty if he says no to him. I see that Sheldon watches tho when I deal with Stephan. I stay in controle far better. I let Stephan see all the consequences, and I let him understand that it's his choices when he's not behaving, and it works very well. I appreciate it too that Sheldon doesn't interfere when Stephan isn't behaving and I need to deal with him. I went out today after work and bought Stephan a bunch of toys, couloring books, cars and stuff. It felt good, but I felt a little funny about it. I thought of when I used to get things for my own son, and how I wish things were differant and that I could do these things for him, but I just can't. I tried so hard to make amends with my wife, but she just doesn't want anything to do with me. There's nothing I can do. Lots of people don't understand when I try to explain things. I really wish there was something I could do for both my kids, but it's something that I always live with, but need to keep it in the past. Back then I know I wasn't a good father or husband. I tried to be, but didn't know how. It's a consequence that I will always live with. Anyway, can't get into that now. Have things to do. Thank you Lord for everything you are doing. Thank you for Sheldon and Stephan, and a new chance to have a family, and to be able to show love. Amen.