Well had a few trying days, but all is well. My computer was down and I was bitching with Bell. I got an upgrade on my account, and of course something messed up. Anyway seems alright now. I like the change too. So much faster, and I casn get more done now. Yahoooooo! Work seemed a little more tense since I told the chef off. I just don't trust the jerk now, but I can't change him. It's kind of too bad tho. It could really be a good place to work, but he does have a negative pressence there, and everybody feels it and knows. I tried practicing program tho. I was thinking all night last night how I would deal, and react with him, but I put everything aside and just decided that life goes on. Today is another day, and I'm not going to live in the past, or let him get me down. Last night I bought some of my favourite donuts from the bakery on the corner. It was hard, but I did it. I saved my most favourite donut and took it to work to let him try it. I came in and acted as if it was a differant day. I put my anger away, and decided to just go with the day. In the past I would have hung on to that anger. I would have been as sarcastic as I could of anything he did wrong, but I didn't, and he did do some fucked up things that I could have had fun with. He makes the soup way too early. It was a barley soup, so of course with the heat, barley expands. By the time lunch was being served the soup was so thick. I couldn't beleive it. He let it stay out without fixing it. He's really not so hot. Really doesn't care about his work, or pleasing the customers, and it shows. I assume that it's only a matter of time before something happens. I do watch my ass a little more now tho. I don't trust him, so i have to watch I don't give him any ammo to use against me. He must really have a miserable life. He really has some problems. Anyway, I'm getting tired of the short order, but there's nothing I can do. The other guy is still on sick leave, son I have to fill in. It's getting to me a little. On short order the customers seem to always have some type of bitching going on. Goes with the teritory. When people want to bitch, they seem to always take it out on the food. Anyway, I learned long ago that you can't please everyone. Just a pain in the ass at times. You can do your very best, but all it takes is one jerk complaining about something stupid and it can ruin your day. Been putting off meetings for the past few days, and it does affect me. I notice my thoughts are more negative, and I'm more agitated. I'll go tomorow. Been getting some other things done, at least trying. Got my taxes done today. What a laugh that was. I went to this place that is by the gym. It was a joke. The guy really didn't know what he was doing. I was patiant, but man he was something else. I gave him my stuff, and he filled out the forms on the computer. I could tell he didn't know much about computers. He went to print it, there must have been enough pages to build a tree. He kept phoming someone for information. It went on and on. i was really getting worried, because he really didn't know what he was doing. It really tried my patience. It was something out of a comedy. Anyone else would have told him, "Fuck you." But I didn't. I wanted to, but I'm too nice. This guy had papers comming out of everywhere. He was trying to remain calm and profesional, but it wasn't working. I thought about just taking my papers and walking out, but I know where he was at. Sometimes things are rough. Just glad he had me instead. Kinda felt sorry for him. anyway, I get money back. Got home and there was more bills. Isn't life grand?. talked with Cathy tonight too. I wasn't going to call her anymore. I could tell something was up last weekend. aprently, her ex husband had called her wanting to get back together. She's been doing that for twenty years. Sounds to me like he finds someone else, gets dumped, then wants back with her. I told her what I thought. I told her that I would get together with her on the weekend if she wanted. She wasn't sure yet. I really don't want a relationship with her, but I hate guys that play those games. and I would offer some support, or encouragement. Anyway, tired now. Jimmy wants to sleep, so I gotta go. Thank you, Lord. Amen