Wow! Today seems like a real bummer. Work went well, but I got home, and no message from Cathy. I really don't understand this part of women, or life. You get involved, try to be the best person you can be, but it never seems good enough. Again I was a good person. Acted like a real gentleman. Everything seemed great. Then out of the blue, she decides that she doesn't want a relationship. At least we could be freinds. I don't understand not being able to still be freinds. Hell, I can't help but care for people, and develope feelings. Well, this is going to suck for a bit. Why the hell am I doing this. Sure, I want to love someone, and have them in my life, but this hurts.