Tonight just taking it easy, and relaxing at home. It was a good week that went very well. Kept my goal to go to the gym everynight and get into the weights Not over doing it. Got some pain, but good pain, which I noticed affects my emotions and kind of disturbs me a bit. Today some negative things were going through my mind. Not really negative. I think it's just some signals that I need to address in some ways. Mostly concerning the chef and my attemps to cooperate. I have been giving all the respect and cooperation that I can, but at times it's seeming that it's not enough, or that it's not being reciprocated. I feel that I do need to be a little more assertive with some things. I am trying, and giving all I can with the chef, but he has this thing about always looking and watching for any faults or wrongs to point out. It seems that it's really overly. I think that it's his own thing about controle, or somewhere along the lines of being the only one that knows anything. At times it really feels like his eyes are all over me. He tries to be inconspicuous, but very much overdoing it in my view. If I take a juice or anything, he'll go over and check it, kind of in a sneaky way. Seems to be a constant thing. I try not to let it bother me, but it can get a little anoying. We talk together during work. We talk casually during our work, and he's pretty pleasant, but it's like we talk and then after he spends a lot of time trying to catch me at things. We haven't talked anything about it. I usually try to just do my work and not let it bother me, but it is a little iritating. By not saying anything, and just doing my work anyway, because it's not a big deal, but I'm getting a feeing that I'm being a doormat. I feel that I should be addressing some of it. I know to get the work done we have to cooperate, and work together as a team, but it's a little hard when the other person seems to be overly concerned about catching you for any little thing. It's not anything big, but I find it hard working with someone that comes across as your partner, but behind everything their looking for any kind of fault. Perhaps it's a trust thing or something. When I work,  I like to trust the people that I'm working with, but when their more preocupid about finding faults over things that a lot of times seem very unnecessary, it does anoy me. It's like he has to find anything, just for the sake of saying something. It feels like getting tiny  jabs throughout the day, and it can be a little tiring. Sometimes I see other people doing the same thing, but nothings said. Like I say, it's not a big deal, but something I need to look at Also like I say, I am a little worn out, so that is having an effect on my thinking, and emotions. Tim and I are getting along alright. In some ways I do feel that we have a freindship. We talk a little, and share in a lot of things. Like the cooking, and keeping things in order. He doesn't do things in an open way, concerning using. I don't let what he does outside take up room in my head. If that's his choice, it's his choice. I do consider him a freind, but there's boundries that I keep, and it seems to be working for me. I'm not worried about hin, and I go about my own bussienn. Tomorow I'm going to Cathy's place. Were going to watch a movie there, and I'm going to pick up something to cook. Money is alright, but I'm being careful because I'm just not rich, and payday is Wednesday, and well money really has a way of going. I'm tired, so I'm rambling here a little. Monday the chef will be at a meeting in Tornto, so I'll be doing his work. No big deal. Mayby he'll realize that I am alright with things, and he doesn't need to worry. Last time was really funny because he came in early and had every single thing done by the time I came in. Literally everything. That was anoying because I had really nothing at all to do that day. I joked him about that today. Well, I'm calling it a night. Looking foreward to sleeping in. I remember in early recovery I would find it kind of scary when the weekends came. That seems to have gone. I'm getting some very good things now that are just life. I'm going to see Cathy, and going to the market. Just having a normal weekend and life. I'll enjoy that, and doing my laundry, and tidying up my home. It is nice. Things are very manageble, and getting better. I am very happy, and pretty content. I do feel that peace of mind. Ths really is very nice. Thank you so much, Lord. Thank you so much. Amen.