I got my computer going again. It was differant without it, but not like an addiction. I think it was actually good not having it for a few days. I found I got more things done around the house. So, Christmas is over. Good. I really think too much pressure and stress comes about because of it. I grew up with a lot of good memories of Christmas, and family. It seems to always cause me sadness, because things are differant now. Those times are a thing of the past. I've tried to hang on to them for so long, but that seems to only cause me pain. I tried to look for things differant this year, but failed at that. I really didn't have a good Christmas. Chose the wrong things, and that's what happens. i decided to go to a freinds place, but they still drink, and aparently have a lot of problems which came up. Really a stupid decision on my part, but still it taught me some things. Tim still seems to be a little problem. Does a lot of things that bothers me. I kinda put it on the side, but he is a pretty sick little boy. I don't understand all of it, nor do I care too, but I'm always asking myself if this is something that I want in my life. Of course I don't, and it does affect me no matter what. It does help me to learn about how peoples sickness can affect others. Even tho I have no part in anything he is doing, I see it does affect my peace of mind. It also has an affect on my spirituality. It causes me to have negative emotions like anger, distrust, resentments, disdain... It will be dealt with in time tho. Well, a little tired right now. Going to have a nap. Thank you Lord for a good day.