Day 8

  Yesterday ended so, so. I went to a C.A. meeting last night, but was really disapointed. This new guy, some big kid made aq stupid comment about playing laser tag when you get your one year key tag, and I thought fuck it. I'm not sitting and sharing with someone like that, who just comes in and talking like that. I know it's just something you get once in awhile, but I just didn't feel I wanted to be there. All The people I liked the other night weren't there, so it was a little disapointing. I phoned my sponsor after, and we talked about it. No big deal. Just sometimes like that. Got my membership yesterday. I went after and sat in the hot tub, and took a sauna. That was nice, but I do want to do more tonight. Work went well. The chef is comming in early to cook the turkeys, and he did most of my work. That was nice. Made the morning really easy. The whole job is really easy. It's going good tho. I feel comfortable. I got my pay yesterday. Nice differance in the pay. I'm going to pay some bills tonight, and buy some groceries. Everything seems to be going well. Had thoughts about drinking. Only because I have money now. We have thoughts all the time, but I know it's our choices that matter. I made the choice to not drink. I know it's not going to do one bit of good. Got some differant smokes too from the security guard at work. He gets them all the time for people. He gets differant ones tho that come in packages. I tried some of the chefs and they were better than what I get. $5.00 more a carton, but a lot better. Besides, I used to get the other ones from that old jerk I got the pills from, so I don't want to go around him. Been thinking about Jenn a lot lately. She's such a good person, but her mothers dieing and it's just sad. She can't see her mother, and that's so wrong. I know there's nothing I can do. It's just the way I feel. Can only pray, and hope everything goes the way it should. Well off for another day sober. Thank God for that. Lord please help keep me straight. Allow me the ability to let others help me. Thank you.