Today is the first day that I've been able to be really clean. I'm still a little tired, and my heads abit foggy, but I've been listening to Dillon. He's told me so much about whats real. all these years, I've been falling and almost killing myself. I just couldn't get completly sober for long. I really think Dillon is going to help with this. All I can do is listen when he talks. I can't argue or anything, even tho he pisses me off with it. God, all these years. I've never met anyone that really knew what they were talking about. Anyway too tired now. Gotta get up at 4am tomorow. Works going well too. Chefs a tough guy, but he let me know in his own way that I'm doing good. Went jogging today after work. Really liked that. The cold air felt so good. Thank you God for another chance.