Well, things are seeming like a struggle, at least money wise. Thinking about looking at differant things to try and releive some pressure. It might be just the change with work, but I'm feeling stressed out. Feel like I'm always going just to maintain. Not much relaxation time, or fun. Tim's on the verge of relapsing, but not much I can do about it. I see things about him, and I mention it, but it's the same old thing. They think they know what their doing and everything is fine. I went in his room last night just to check. He doesn't smoke, but I found ashes on the dresser. I also found a pop can with holes, but it hadn't been used. We kinda talked today. I didn't say anything about what I saw. He said he was jonsing last night and called a couple of people trying to get something, but he didn't. I think he told the truth, but it bothers me that he went so close to doing that. In the begining I told him the number one rule was no drugs in the house. He was all prepared to do it, and have it delivered. Only reason he didn't was because they didn't want to deliver it. But it does make me a little angry. Here I am giving him as break by not charging him much, and he's almost smoking it right here. I don't care if he does it somewhere else, but I don't want my place used for that. It just kinda shows me where his mind is really at. He doesn't care about the rules, or the fact that I don't want drugs in my place. I know he didn't do it, but he might as well have. It's about the same to me. The only thing that stopped it was the guys didn't want to deliver it, but he would have done it. It just doesn't sit right with me. I haven't said what I feel about it yet. I may just wait a bit and see how things go. It's just that it tells me that he doesn't respect the rules or anything else. Anyway, I do understand, I've been there and I know. Doesn't mean I have to accept it. Anyway, start the new job tomorow at 5 am. Shit, that means I have to get up at 4. Oh, Lord. Please help. Good night.