Today was a really good day compared to last week. i think it has a lot to do with just doing the best I can, and accepting myself with all my faults. Not many people can do that, except me and God it seems, and of course Lil Jimmy. He knows about real acceptance. He takes me anyway I am. All he ask in return is that I love him. If only people could learn from animals, what a wonderful world this would be I've been realizing that I have been seeking acceptance far too much from others, and letting it get to me when it doesn't come. Most of my life this seems to be something that seemed important to me. Right now it doesn't. I know I am a good person, and God does too. Sure I need to learn and grow some, but doesn't everybody. After all, life is one big, long learning session. Things are going very well at the apartment. Tim and I talk when were here. I do enjoy talking to him. He is a good person, that wants to be good. Sometimes I find him unknowlegeble about simple things, or things that I find simple, but that's alright. Everyone has their differances that make them unique, and we can enjoy their uniqueness. We don't seem to get on one anothers nerves, and we both do our own things, but we still try to work together when it comes to living together. I did start hiding my coffee cup tho. He seemed to take a likeing to it and always using it. I hide it for a couple of days in the oven. I like my cup, that's all. We've been eating very well. I don't mind cooking the meals, and Tim does appreciate my cooking. It's easy for me because I know how to do it well, so it only goes that I should look after that area. I like doing it too. It makes it feel more like a home here. I'm also likeing this new way of living the past couple of days. All I'm really doing is trying to be myself, and enjoy everything that comes before me. When it comes to people or things that I don't paticularly care for, I just accept that I don't care for everything. There are some things in my life that I just prefere not to have. Before in recovery I tried to accept everything, but I find this isn't always good. Sure it did improve things to a degree, but I realize there are some things that I just prefere not to have, and that's alright. I don't have to like everything.. I have this freind that I talk to on yahoo. I met her on D.S. At first I thought it weird that she told me she loved me, calls me honey and baby. We have never seen each other, and there isn't anything to it, but I find that I really like those things. Makes me feel really good. I was never told that much in my life, but I find that by accepting it, it's a really good thing. I think that we all need to feel loved in some way. I remember when I was drinking and doing drugs, I was starved for love. I wished nothing more than someone to hug me, or tell mev they loved me. I think that when we live without love, we slowly die. Love has such a great power that has the ability to do wonders, and help to change peoples lives. My one wish is that I always have someone to tell me they love me. Thank You, Lord. Amen