Oh, lord it's been a long day. Really find it very difficult not doing really anything this weekend. I paced around driving myself crazy, tried napping but couldn't, made supper for Tim and I. That wasn't too bad. Kept me busy for awhile. We had stew and rice. We have been eating good, and I do need that. I'm sure my weight is comming back again. We have been eating really well. I need to find something to ocuppy my time. This is making me want to drink. I just stay at home. I've been so busy the last while with Bob. My addiction kept me pretty busy too, and I just can't handle this staying at home with nothing to do. There is a meeting tonight, so I'm going to go to that. I need to be with some people. It's a speaker meeting so that's good. I can just sit back and listen, and ease my mind with it's thinking. Most people look foreward to the weekend and doing things. I don't know what to do, and I'm too broke to go anywhere. I'll talk to Dillon about it. Mayby he has some suggestions. I had some great news today tho. A freind that got mad at me got in touch. I was so shocked, but very much relieved. That did help to make me feel better. Well, it's back to work tomorow. Hope I feel alright. Please Lord, stay with me. I really need your help. Thank you.