Well, today is a little better, I suppose. Still feeling awful about the situation with my freind. Went out for a walk with Tim. He's doing very well with keeping clean. He went to a meeting last night. Seemed like a bit of a strange meeting. He said the cops came there looking for a kid or something, that went missing. That's a first I ever heard of about cops going to a C.A. meeting. Must have freaked a few people out. He also said that before the meeting began or something, some guy came up by the people standing there smoking, and he did a blast in front of everyone and said hello to them. That was kinda funny and made me laugh. We walked over to the Working Center where they fix bikes up to sell. I was really impressed. Tim got a beutiful mountain bike that looks new for thirty bucks. he was very happy about it. I might look into getting one later. I've always ridden bikes, but haven't been since I came to Kitchener. Always kept me in pretty good shape, inspite of my addictions. I also payed half of the hydro bill. The other half I will get on Tuesday when I get payed. I took that book back to the library too. I was truthful with them, and told them I just couldn't pay for it like they asked in the letter. They said I didn't have to. They said that since I brought the book back I will only have to pay $6.oo, when I can. So that was good. It was kinda nice getting out. I think over the last while I have been spending far too much time inside on the computer. I'm going to try and get to some meetings. I notice such a big differance in the way I feel now, and what I used to feel. Right now I'm struggling with that hopless feeling that keeps telling me, "What's the use." I don't feel good at all right now, so I think meetings are in order. They helped before, mayby they might again. I hope so. I really need something that will inspire me, or give me some hope again. Lord, please help me.