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  Well, today was good. Because of the spirituality that I practise. Bob is really a liar, but I can laugh at it. Funny, because it's concerning money. Yesterday he told me he would pay $10.00 an hour because we were doing the roof on this house. Roofing involves a lot of pain. I haven't used some of these muscles for awile now. My ass is sore, my shoulders are sore, but I feel good. I've been needing some exercise for awhile. I used to do similar work that was very demanding on the body, most of the time. I have always liked hard work for some reason. I think it used to be a good way of venting, or realesing anger. Anyway, I couldn't beleive that he straight up lied. I didn't talk to him about it yet, but I will tomorow for sure. The money really isn't the issue with me. It's the point of what he said, and then what he did. i find that kind of stunning. He's a seik, and often we get into conversations about God. I was under the impression that he truly followed it, and tried to live by it. Surprised the hell out of me. I've often thought this about Bob. People like this I usually catch onto fast. Ya can't fool an old con. But this kind of surprised me because it was so straight out. it is something I need to confront him about. i'll still work with him. I do like the variety of work, and not really having the hasslels of people always on your back, as with most jobs. and the best news of the day is G is back. My little hillbilly. God do I love the way she talks, and really spunky. I've really had to rely on just faith that everything was alright. So nice to not worry as I used to. I know that God will look after everything, and give us both what we need. It's really been quit the experience since meeting her. Taught me a lot about acceptance. She doesn't know it yet, but I still beleive that we will be together somehow, some day. And, no, I'm not obsessing about it. I have asked myself about this often. I just love her. Plain and simple. Never have I met someone under the circumstances that we met. I just know that God had a hand in this. Right from the begining we seemed to just fit together. At least, this is how I felt. Anyway, I am so glad that God brought us together. I couldn't ask for a better freind. Anyway, it's late, and time for bed. Lord, I thank you so much for all you do. I pray that you build my courage, strength and hope. Teach me your ways. Help me to be obediant, and honest. I know I often fall short of your ways, and the person you want me to be. Help me with these things. Take me wholly, and build me. Help me to be a servant of yours. Thank you so much for being with me. I love you. Amen