Yesterday was a very good day. It's such a releif not having to struggle with my addiction problem. All I have to do is do what my Dr is telling me, and that's what I'm doing. I'm trying not to forecast things that may be ahead, and just focusing on now. Things seem to be slowly falling back into place tho. I have some money in my pocket again. That feels real good. Not having money can really get to me, but I find it has good things that I can learn too. It teaches me to be patient, and draws me closer to God. It also helps me to be very grateful for what I have. i find that when I don't have money, I become more aware of what I don't want to lose.. I think it teaches me too that I just can't do everything, and sometimes I just have to wait. Money is a very powerfull commodity that can cause us all kinds of worry and things. The more you get, the more you accumulate to worry about loseing. Some of my best moments sober have been when I had nothing. Like everything else, it has the old Ying and Yang philosophy to it. Depending how we choose to look at things, there is always a balance of good, and what we consider bad. The thing to do is focus as much as we can on the good. well, the day is almost over. It's been a good day overall. dan was working with us today. Him and Carlo's were up doing crack all night. Every time Dan does that he blames Carlo's and starts saying he needs to get away from him. I'm sure Carlo's never twisted his arm to do it. Dan says, "That's it for me. I'm straigtening out this time." As soon as we finished he's asking Bob to stop at the beer store. I stopped hanging around those guys long ago. i see them, and say hi, but that's it. i found it too hard to quit drinking when I used to visit with them. I would come home from meetings, and all it took was them asking if I wanted a cold one, and that was it. I'm glad that seems to be out of my system. I have my other isues that I need to deal with now, drinking would just destroy me. I really don't have any of the obsession that I had before where alcohol is concerned. I just know too well what it does to me. There is nothing good about it at all. For that I am very thankful. Lord, I pray that you give me the courage and strength that I need for my strugles ahead. Help me to be strong in your ways. I thank you Lord for all you do. Help me to grow, and learn in your ways. Thank you. Amen