Today is very quiet and relaxing. Not used to that much. I'm usually busy doing things, but today just taking it easy. My landlord hasn't called while I've been here, so I guess were not working. Thats good too. Gives me time with my kitty, and he likes that. I went out earlier to get some ciggaretts. Had to go to Fairview Mall for them. Sometimes I get them off this old guy I know. I buy reserve ciggaretts because the ones in the store are just too expensive. i know it's wrong because it's illegal, but sometimes I find you just have to do things to get by. I'm sure not rich, and I can't afford $8 a pck everyday. I don't want to quit yet. I often think about it, but I just don't want the stress of that right now. I'm working on eating regularly, and properly now. I bought some food at the mall thats easier for me to make right now with my hand. I bought Lil Jimmy lots of food too. I got him this toy mouse. He loves it. Hasn't stopped playing with it since I got home. When I got to the old guys house, him and these other two people were there smoking crack. The place had this erie sense of evil to me, just being there. I didn't stay or get into any talking. Just got my cigaretts and left. There was no urge or anything to join them. That stuff scares me. I didn't like what they were doing, but it's their choice, and nothing to do with me. I usually get my smokes off this other guy downtown, but his number was out of service. I'll find him again tho. This old guy is crazy tho. About 65 or 70, and he's doing that. Last time I saw him he told me that he was getting into crack too much and couldn't stop. It's too bad. I'm very glad that I'm not there, and I'm even more glad to not be bothered with any desire's about using. I don't ever want to go there again. I know what my purpose was going there, and I did it and left. That's the way it has to be. Lord, I thank you that you are with me. I thank you for the ability to make right choices. I thank you for this life you've given me. Amen.