Today was 100% better than yesterday. I had my energy back and wasn't sick. I don't know what happened yesterday. Just a bad day. I find that when I start to get sick everything seems to get off track. All spirituality just seems to vanish. My mind goes all over the place. Glad that seems overwith now. I forced myself to go with Paul last night to do some work. even tho I wasn't feeling great, I know that it's not good to just sit bymyself  and thinking. I've learned from previous times to not do that.. Anyway, not much else to say right now. i did send some messages to Georgette. she seems to know me pretty good. She knows that I can start thinking all negative and get myself all fucked up over nothing. Funny how those things can seem like such a big deal sometimes. At lest i'm getting better at recognizing it. Gotta go and work now