Today was a really hard day. At work I was so sick. i asked to leave after I was there about an hour, but they were really short. i got mad at the chef and started swearing about it. He started trying to tell me that if I left I had to get a Dr's note. He said it was company policy. I thought that was such a stupid thing to say. I was throwing up and he's trying to say that if I leave I had to go to the Dr's to get a note. If I'm sick enough that I leave work I'm sure not going across the city a spend a few hours getting a not to tell them I'm sick. It really pissed me off. I told the manager after. I also told him that that stupid kind of response almost made me feel like just being sick in front of the customers. If my nose is running, just let the snot fall in the food. That would be really good. Anyway, I did stick it out because I knew they needed me. Was hard as hell tho. What even makes me more angry is that yesterday my supervisor was off and I had to run the whole thing myself. The only other person they had to help was the new guy that worked with me there before. He was really useless and only pissed me of because I had to redoe everything he did. I told them that it's funny they don't seem to have a policy for that. Anyway, it was just a hard day. They thanked me for sticking it out. Really bothers me that people can be so uncareing. I've been dealing with a few issues along that line. The hard part about it is you can't do anything about it. Can't make people care about you. I'm worrying about a lot too, so thats causing me some stress. My elbow I think is fractured and I can't even do anything about it. It's swollen and sore, but I have to keep going. I have my operation comming up next week and that will put me out of action for awhile. I'm not even sure now if I'm going to do it. Seems like I'm going to lose the internet, and probably electric. Seems like another mess I've gotten myself into, but thats another story that I don't want to get into here. I think I'm going to need a lot of prayers for the next while. I'm worrying a lot, but I know God is with me. Hope I keep remembering that. I cried today after I finished work. just feeling frustrated, a little confused, and well a lot of other stuff that I can't do anything about. I sure could use a hug and a real freind. Anyway, I'm going to work with Paul tonight. Still feel sick and run down, but I don't want to sit here thinking about shit. Lord, please be with me. Hold me and comfort me as I walk through the things I need to. Help me to not be overwhelmed with fear. I really need you now. Thank you, Amen.