Today was much better at work, although I got shit because on my break I was smoking where I wasn't supposed to. I normally smoke at this secluded spot where I can read and meditate about things. It's nice and peaceful, but the door leading to it wasn't available because of a meeting. Apparently the security had a camera and seen me. They called my manager and showed him the video. He called me in the office and told me that if they catch me again I could be asked to leave the building. I understand the point of warning me, but I thought it was really silly calling him to show him the video like as if they had footage of some crime or something. All they had to do was tell me. Oh well, I guess they got their jobs to do and need to show all the evidence and facts. Hell, I was smoking in the bush by the recycling bin. Still it's there rules and I have to obey them. Ya think I might have a problem with rules? Sure do, but I will do what they say and work at being more accepting of rules. I know that is a problem for me. Always has been. Never liked being told what to do, but it is time I really start working harder on that. I need to. G sent me this crazy thing that had some guy with his pecker twtching. An E-mail. What a start for the day at 5A.M. Trashed that fast. I'm really bruised up now from my fall of the ladder. Almost from my necd down. Really looks bad, but it really doesn't bother me much. I still do everything all right. Just can't move my arms up properly yet. There is pain, but it's not too bad. A couple of times I went to move fast to catch something and that really hurts bad. My little kitty is a real freind to me now. I'm so happy that we got him. He's a terific little guy. He's fine by himself, loves playing and has such a good personality. I've only had to smack him lightly once because he was messing around with Eno the fish, but he hasn't been bothering Eno lately. He just like a little kid. So nosy and curious about everything. Likes to eat my food when I'm eating. I don't mind. I like the fact that he feels free to do what he wants, and he is good. No trouble at all. I like at night when he's with me. He likes to be rubed and pampered before I go to sleep. I love hearing his purr. It's really comforting because I know he's happy. He purrs all the time. I take him out once in awhile, but I think he's more comfortable here inside. Too much stuff for him to try and take in outside and he just doesn't know what to do or think about it. Anyway, might go to a meeting tonight, not sure tho. Karl was trying to borrow money again. I told him I won't give him money again because I had to fight to get it back last time. I don't want to bother with him anyways. He's a little too much for me and he annoys me. It's always the same thing, "Can you lend me ten dollars till payday. I promise I'll give it back." He rents the playboy channel so he can wear his girlie panties and jerk off, and then bums of everyone he comes in contact with. Pretty sick. Anyway, gotta get some food and do things. Lord, I thank you so much for this life today, and all you do. Thank you.