Today was a good day, until I fell off the ladder. I was helping my landlord with some houses. I was stupid and stood on the top of the ladder. The ladder came right out from me and I landed hard on my shoulder. At first I thought I might have broken it so I just layed there for a bit. Nothings broken tho. I soaked it awhile in the tub when I got home. It's still in pain and I can't lift my arm yet, but I think it's alright. I think I just bruised and twisted the muscle. I hope it's better tomorow. I like working on houses. It's nice driving around and seeing differant places. A lot better than just downtown where I live. Too much of that can get to you after awhile. we were out at some carpet places today picking up carpet. I got looking at some differant types of flooring. I'de like to do the floor here, and I started thinking that I just might down the road. I'm finding that I'm feeling a lot better about things now. Not so scared about everything. Actually, I feel very good about facing the chalenges of being responsible. So many times in the past that would just scare me, or I just thought I couldn't do it, so why bother trying. I almost got into that thinking when I drank. Well, I did get into it, but at least I did what it took to get out of it. Thank God. That old life is a deadend. Just nothing. I'de rather be dead than live that way again. This life is a lot better. Having clean clothes, a nice place to live, food. Most of all I like the respect of the people that care about me. I've met a lot of people now that like me and respect me. They trust me and can depend on me to do things. I don't want to run from things anymore and I'm welcoming the chalenges now. It's true what they say in A.A. Nothing is given to you that is too hard. I like being able to do things now, and not just dreaming about them. I am happy with my life now, and I know that it's going to get better as long as I keep doing the things that I'm doing now. Thank you, Lord for everything.