Oh boy. Sure is hard without G here. Karl just came up with my money. About fifteen minutes ago I went down to see him about it. He said he didn't have it as usual. I ended up threatening him that if he didn't get it I would knock his head off. I hate having to do that, but I know Karl. He'll try everything possible to get what he can out of you. He's a profesional user. Others think I might be cruel, but I know that with him you need to be this way or you'll just get taken. It worked. He had the money all along. He just gave it to me. Thats the last time I ever lend him anything because4 I always end up having to threaten him and I don't like that. I would never hurt him, but I hate getting into the possition that I need to resort to that. Anyway, I still can't figure out here how to get paragraphs. I hit the tab button and I can't get it to work. I'm finding that computers can be very frustrating. They really try my patience. I'm still missing G. I talked to her the other night. I feel abit better. The whole thing still upsets me. I was really trying. She said , well we both agreed that we would be honest with each other. I got some perks one day because my back was bothering me, but after taking them I realized that they seemed too dangerous for me. Being an addict, I really liked how they affected me. I felt good without the feeling of being high and out of it. I seemed to have more motivation, but inside I knew it was a narcotic, and as we all know, narcotics mostly lead to trouble. I thought I was doing right by telling Georgette about it, even tho my gut instincts told me not too. Now I think it was very wrong to tell her. It really wasn't a big deal to me. I knew I wasn't abusing them, or even thinking about continuing. I just thought it was a mature thing to share with the person that I loved. She ended up leaving because of it. It got