Been away from this for awhile, but I've been doing well. A lot of changes, but that just seems to be what happens in recovery. The key word there being, "Happens." Nothing happens during active addictions.                                                                                                                        Well, I haven't been at the Sobriety Center. I really don't miss it. I would have wanted to see some changes toward recovery, but that just wasn't to be. Had a lot of people say they wanted to do this or that, but nothing really happened. I find a lot of people say things because it sounds good, or they want to appear willing or something, but when it comes down to doing the real work they dissapear. Oh well, it's not my problem, and I don't feel bad about anything. I know I did my best. Some things juswt aren't meant to be. Besides, around the end i noticed that the people were really starting to get to me. There was a lot of selfishness, conning, lieing, and just plain negativity going on. I want to be around people that are trying to be good people. People that want to grow and live. That wasn't happening there.                                                                              My honey is living with me now, and we have a new appartment. Thats been the main reason I haven't been on D.S. The appartment was a shithole that haden't been cleaned or painted in years. I spent the first month, pretty well, just tearing everything apart. The landlord came one day and brought a guy to paint. I had previously been on his ass about painting the place because that was part of our agreement before moving in. But all they did was paint over the shithole, and just changed the coulor. It was still a shithole. They only stayed a few hours. I decided after that I can keep pissing myself off about things, and expecting the landlord to care, or I could just say fuck it and do it myself. So I tore apart things, got some sheetrock, and went crazy. Drank a lot of energy drinks, espresso coffee and just done things the way I wanted them. I figured it was going to be my home, and I want to live good