Wow! Today was going good until a few minutes ago. I wanted to punch out one of the kids a few minutes ago. Sorry to say, but this one is a real goof and he just hit the wrong button. I'm so fucking mad right now. I'm almost shaking. This started around last week when I tried finding out if he was doing dope while he was working. I told the director about it, because i just don't trust or like this kid. dillon was stupid and gave this kid a title to make him feel important, but it went to his head. He came in the other night trying to tell me what to do. he wanted me to put things, "On his desk." I just kind of laughed it off at the time, but this kid really thought he had some authority here. i went to the washroom tonight, so I have to lock the door when I do that, in case someone comes in without me knowing it. i was comming back out, and all of a sudden I hear someone kicking the door hard. I thought, "Who the hell is that?" I open the door and he tells me, "The doors supposed to be open." I got mad, but I held my tongue. I just said, "Who the hell you think you are kicking the door like that?" he just gives me a smirk, like some goof, and pushes me aside. I went to the computer and still kept quiet, but it was burning my ass. finally I just thought, "fuck this." I got up and got in his face and told him to get the fuck out of here. Then he starts telling me like he's going to set me up. Oh, man! I wanted to grab him so bad. Then he tries taunting me. I guess I finally scared the hell out of him enough to go. thank, God. I hate the anger that I'm feeling right now. This is one emotion that I avoid like the plague, because I know the harm it can do, but this kid brought it out. Just seeing the sickness in this kids look really got to me, and I knew that if I did anything, I was going to jail, and thats exactly what this kid wanted me to do. when I told Dillon about it after, he phoned the kid and talked to him. Of course the kid tried to say i tried to hit him or something. Dillon talked to me after and said he knew that was wrong, but then he tries telling me that we need to get along. This is one thing that I will not do. I don't get paid for this. i'll be damned if I'm going to take another chance being alone with this jerk. I'm not that stupid. Anyone that doesn't respect me for what I do here can stay the hell away from me, Period. I'll never take another chance like this again. Going to jail for some little snot nosed punk while volunteering. i just got of the phone with Dillon. Actually writting this out helped me to decide how I want to handle this. I told Dillon that anybody can deal with this kid if he wants him, but I told him he's not going to be around me. I am not putting myself in that kind of position again. Anyway, I'm going home soon. I won't pray for that fucker tonight, I tell you that. Thank you, Lord for keeping me safe, and giving me the ability to see trouble when it tries to come. Thank you.