work went pretty good. I was tired as hell tho. One of the last customers, I was yawning in her face. couldn't help it. it was a busy day and I was exhausted. I'm here tho at the center still going. On the way home I seen Nancy on the bus. She didn't look too well. I know that she's been back out again because her old sponsor works where I work and she told me she was back out. She didn't even want to look at me. Kept avoiding eye contact. It's too bad, but I know it's very difficult for some people, and for some they die. I know Nancy will be back again tho. She just needs to do what she's doing for awhile. You never know what demons a person is fighting with, so I try not to judge them. I was like that for years. Just couldn't straighten out no matter what. It's only by the grace of God that that obsession has been lifted from me this time. What a wonderful freedom that is. All I can do is pray for her, and hope she gets back soon.                                                                                                                        I made some waves at work today. Might have been wrong, but I'm willing to deal with it. I kept noticing that people in the kitchen weren't following the rules that I had been told about by the sous chef. Things like wearing cutting gloves when your using a knife, and wearing proper hats. Even the new chef I seen not wearing a glove. So I pointed it out to him. And yes, it was a little pay back for all the stupid shit they were trying with me. The sous chef used to go out of his way to say anything at all that he seen me doing, or even things just to exercise his vocal cords. I decided that I'm not going to be nobodys doormat. I do my best to do my work well, and if your going to tell me something you better make sure that it fits all and not just intended for me. Thats really what it was like for awhile. They were treating me with a much harder standard than the others, just because I had worked as a chef in the past. They would tell me things, but then I would see the others do the same in front of them, but they would say nothing. To me thats just bullshit. If your telling me that this is the way you want it done, and then letting others do the opposite, well I'm just going to start saying something, and thats the way it's going to be. I may not like the consequences, but I'm not going to work with double standards.. Anyway, thank you Lord. Even tho I'm tired, I thank you that you give me strength to do what I need to do.