Work went well today. I'm keeping on my toes and doing everything thats expected of me. It's a lot bettwer now that I'm getting along with my supervisor. She seems to really respect me now, and thats good. I think she had a problem knowing that I had been a chef before. Maybe she felt intimidated and wanted to sho who's boss or something, but that seems to be all cleared up now. I think that she sees now that I'm just a normal person trying to do a job. I joke around now with them and they seem alot more relaxed around me now. I think the anger I was feeling before towards them is subsiding. I know they are just people the same as me. I need to forgive them the same as I would want them to forgive me for anything I may have done or said.  Forgiveness can really be a difficult thing to do, especially when we feel we are the ones that have been wronged. My God teaches me that I need to love the person, but I can hate the action. Sometimes we can get that mixed up when we allow anger to do our thinking for us. I find that anger can be just as bad as drugs when we allow it to grow in us. We are the ones that allow it. Nobody can make you mad. Getting angry is a choice that we all have. Trying to learn how to train it can be quite the job, but it can be done. Most of the time when I feel myself getting angry, i think about it. I don't react to it like I used to. thats where I find I got into so much trouble. I always reacted to it. I thought I had a right to get angry. Getting angry, i thought was a good thing. It felt good to tell people off. But you know, it has that boomerang effect, just like drugs. You end up hurting people. And when you get really good at getting angry, it's the ones you love that you will hurt the most. I learned that lesson well. It's how I lost my wife and kids. Anyway, I rambling abit. Got stuff to do.  My sponsor came by the center tonight. That was good. I was thinking that if he didn't show up this week, I was going to fire him. We talked about doing a fourth step. I still don't really feel like I want to do one. I will tho sometime this week. I'm not going to go into the past tho. I want to deal with whats in the store today, not what was there yesterday. I've done fourth steps in the past, and yes I think it's good to do one of all the things of the past, but I don't think that it's good to keep rehashing things about the past. I feel that I can talk about anything I've done, as the need arises, but I dwelled in the past for years feeling guilty about so much. I've gone through alot of healing, thanks to the grace of God. I don't need to beat myself up anymore. That only got me drunk again doing that. I'm in recovery today, and that means living today, not yesterday. I thank youn Lord for everything that your doing in my life today. I thank you for this life.