Got through work allright. I was so pissed at my supervisor tho. I held it well tho. I feel like I have to keep my mouth shut and it drives me crazy. I want to tell her stuff that she tells me thats wrong. Today I was serving a customer and this other worker came behind me without saying anything. i moved my hand fast and hit her. then my stupid supervisor says something to the effect that it was my fault. I just about lost it. I went into the kitchen after and talked to the manager about it. He agreed with me. Tomorow I'm going to tell her. Funny thing to is that she's in charge of health and safety. No more keeping my mouth shut about stuff that I do know what I'm talking about. The aftermath of just holding it in and keeping my mouth shut, is just not worth it. I would rather say my peace and be done with it. I don't care if I'm on a probationary period. Shouldn't have to keep quiet just for that. Keeping quiet just pisses me off alot longer because I hold it in and it turns into a resentment. I'm not going to do that. I know that if we build resentments long enough were finished. O.k. Thats done . Now I'm at the sobriety Center for the night. I miss going to my A.A. meetings, but this is also good for me. Gives me a chance to give back. I've got a cold today, so I guess I'm feeling not too well. I come in here and everything is empty and the place is a mess. No coffee made, no sugar in the container, garbage overflowing. It's like they just leave it for me to do. Normally I don't mind, but today seems to be bugging me. I'm not saying anything yet, I know I have a cold so I might just be feeling that. Hard to practise gratitude when your sick. Just want to tell everyone to fuck off.. But I won't. God will get me through. I do know that. Thank you so much Lord for this cold and the oportunity to practise tolerance. Thank you.
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