Today is one month and I get my next chip tonight. I'm really looking foreward to it. I really love this new life and what it's doing for me. It's taken me so long to get this month. I find that it's been easy, but then anything is easier compared to that old life. That was really hard work staying fucked up. Back then I couldn't seem to get out of the past. All the things and people that I messed up with would constantly haunt me and make me feel bad all the time. For some reason it no longer bothers me. I've accepted the fact that I did those things while under the influence of alcohol. Alcohol was doing the thinking for me then. Today I have a clear mind. I can forgive myself and move on. I am sorry for the things that happened, but I no longer need to beat myself up about it. Each day I can now welcome the chalenges that are presented to me. I don't feel that overcast that was always over me. God has been a wonderful factor in my life. He's showing me things each day that helps me to move on. Since opening up on the discusion site I am meeting so many wonderful people. I am starting to see that I can contribute and help others. I can also be open and honest about myself. The promises do come true. We can use the experiences of our past to help others. This is another miracle in the making.This really is a great site that helps. I am grateful for that. Thank you Lord.