Well today went well. Work seems to be going well now. still I get these things that start to mess with my head. Last night I found this paper towel in my bag, and right away I think somebody at work did it on purpose. But when I think the whole thing threw, why would anyone do that unless they were just a jerk or something. It's funny how my head tries to play tricks. i suppose that is from all the years of not trusting myself. i seen another lady I know at the meetings last night. I was worried that maybe she went back out. She really is a funny kind of person. Can be on top of the world one minute, and the next so dramatic. one time she dropped her false teeth out right in front of everyone at the meeting. I really had to hold from laughing out loud. It wasn't an accident either, thats just the way she is.I'm going to drop by the sobriety center and see some of the kids. Sometimes I miss there craziness too. Since being at the center so much I can hardly go anywhere without people saying hi to me. That feels good. That in itself is a miracle. not too long ago the only people that wanted to talk to me were the police. Even they come to the Sobriety Center sometimes to talk about some kid that needs help. Talking to them really makes me feel like a human being. I also get to see that they are more than just a uniform. They can be human too. I got another Bible study yesterday. I want to start that soon. Sometimes i think I take on too much. I don't really give myself much time to relax. I always seem to be on the go. i like being busy tho, no time to think about shit  like I used to. Anyway feeling great today. gotta run now. Lord I thank you so much for all the good things that your bringing into my life. And I pray that I keep moving foreward and not look back. Thank you.