I was so excited when I found out I was pregnant at the beginning of November.  I never imagined that two months later, I would be heart broken without a baby.  Ironically, I teach child development and when I teach prenatal development, I teach the statistics on miscarriage.  Yet, when I walked into my OBGYN on my birthday for the first u/s, it never ocurred to me that there would be a problem with my baby.  I had taken such good care of myself -- ate well, gave up my one addiction (coffee), and was exercising.  My husband was so excited as well.  When I heard the news -- that the baby had stopped developing at six weeks (and I was supposed to be nine weeks a long), I was devestated.  I never imagined how devestated I would feel.  I never imagined the depression that would follow.  Every day is hard for me right now.  I can't stop thinking about the baby I will never have.  I pray that it gets easier and that I feel better soon. . .