4 versus

Music is my outlet, 
Its my release. 
I listen to sad songs when I'm sad
And happy songs when I'm glad.
 
But when I listen to them I become inspired
Inspired to feel my emotions at a new level
Inspired to feel desired
inspired to feel gentle
 
But sometimes those feeling turn dark
they become destructive
I want to destroy everything close to my heart
I want to destroy myself
 
I've sat there with the knife to my wrist's old scars that arc
The feeling that I felt with the blade was so seductive
But after that I restart
I'm coming back, its like re becoming one's self.