4 am........don't wanna be awake right now.

woke up itchy .........ITCHY.  feel like an old momma bear.  my head, my arms, my chest............arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh. and action......bewildered formerly sleeping girl experiences the itchies way to earlye in the morning.

the inside of my ears itch..........what?  why?  stop!  my neck itches.  no hives, no rash, just itchy.  same meds, no new foods......or drink.........slight congestion, stuffy nose.  and itchy.

let it cease and desist.  please.

not enough hazel reruns, roku only had a couple of seasons.  bummer drag. had to stop to scratch my forearms.  can't decide if i'm making it worse or if it's just worse?  need an antihistamine maybe? God I know you're with me and I am very thankful.  

i listened to the greatest hits of the carpenters yesterday.  what a lovely voice .......so smooth and clear.  made some homemade mashed potatoes and baby carrots.  when it was time to make dinner the chicken breast was still pretty frozen.  so i had an ice cream bar and a crunchy snack for dinner.  not great i hear ya, ended the meal with a cup of hot tea sitting under a blanket. 

i got two new warm nighties for the coming cold months.  they are sooooo soft. long gowns with long sleeves......and the material is a velour fleece..... one is a light gray and white floral pattern and the other one is baby blue with white polka dots.  originally sold at Kohls....found them via ebay for a good deal w/shipping included.  time to also think about prepping the porch and patio for winter.  bring in the patio umbrella, pack up all the pillows and stuff like that.

still need to get someone to commit to cleaning that stretch of gutter out back.  need to do these tasks before the fall rains settle in.  we've had a few gorgeous days in a row.......the air is fresh and clean but getting cooler.  winter is coming. 

.......i am sleepy.  not a surprise.  the itch is a little better........easier to tolerate.  whew........what makes the interior of the ears itch?  so weird.  mia has found one of her toys.......she's a night kitty.  loves to play in the dark. 

i swept the floors yesterday.....felt good looking after my cottage.   a few hours later the wipe out hit as usual........try to not let it get to me, aim for taking it in stride........and ever grateful for the blanket over me.......and the little pillows i use to buffet the fibro pain.  i did use a new shampoo yesterday........still don't think that is causing me to itch???? seems that if it were the culprit my scalp would itch.......?  rule the shampoo out. 

i read two  chapters of a book my neighbor lent me.  my vision was not playing nice.......i can't explain it really, but my eyes are not happy reading.  i pressed on until i got to the first page of chapter three.  i can't decide if my sight will improve if i practice reading more consistently, if this is a vision issue specifically or a sjogren's thing or if it's just a tired thing.  hopefully it will settle down like it usually does........my vision has been doing this for a long time.  with good days and bad days........i really wish docs paid more attention and made sure this is not a warning of some kind.  if it's not unusual then i would feel better about the fluctuations.  so often with chronic illness i accept the symptoms, roll with them, but that's not always the best answer.  is it?

my Dad used to come home sometimes after work - he would lean against the doorway and move his spine up and down to relieve an itch........i know i have a couple of back scratchers close by........i may need to get a bar of oatmeal soap.......tomorrow when stores open up.  mia is racing around......her universe is an interesting fun explorable place.  go mia!

rio is probably still on the bed wishing her human would return.   when i woke up he was sleeping on my right arm.  rio likes a lot of closeness.........mia likes to visit closeness but not stay close for too long.  makes me sad that rio never purrs.......mia is a purr bucket. 

one of my azaleas is blooming like mad........but not the other five.  wonder what that is about........it has pretty vibrant red blooms.  think they call it dynamite or fire something or other, but i could be making it up.......the brain is dull and sleepy.

gonna get some fresh water and head back to bed.  at least i can breathe well again.  when i woke my nose was all stuffed up.......wah wah wah, enough complaining.  be a brave good girl and try to sleep.

night night.