4/26/2013

Lots of time expectations fall apart and the after affects are what I have to deal with... this is nothing new for me ,,, it is the old cliché of setting up the bowling pins and having them knocked down,,, only to set them up again, It is not so much the doing as in the expectation that moves in a very different direction from something that is so simple and direct. For me, the lesson here is obvious, but I go through that same drama again and again.. The emotional wreckage is mostly self inflicted .. there are period I suppose when I am just a bit low,,, I thought a lot about this from yesterday when I went to a MH support group that I (sometimes) attend..
 
I kind of get the thinking when I push too hard things just do not happen or do not happen the way I would expect, rather it would be better to just allow them to run their own path in their own time,